Surrendering.

What does it mean to surrender?

Does it not mean give up and let go? In war, many surrenders conditionally, saying "only if ...", and I guess in life, we do the same on many issues. We say we surrender, but we hold back things in our hearts with many "only if", we did not allow God to fully work in us.

Funny how we think God abandons us sometimes, but really, it is us that lacked the connection to God. I know it sounds weird. When we pray to God, help us, we need such and such, but we do not let him in our heart fully...we turn him off at will and expect him to be on when we want Him. In the end, sometimes we might just realize that he was indeed there, but we didn't catch a glimpse of him.

I'm rambling. But bottom line is that God never leaves us...I just proved it with google deskstop's search function. yeah, long story, I'll have to do some more writing another time when I'm more settled down.

TMH.